WOW it's been a long time since i updated. i think like 4 months. so it's now mid summer and i'm gunna tell ya what i've been doin. well my best friend moved back to germany, that was at the very beggining of the summer. not a good start. other than that i've been workin a lot, playin sum vb, hangin out with a ton of cool ppl and building friendships with a lot of new ppl to which is amazing, trying to get tan, got my hair cut! 6 inches off, it's insane! my friend corey just got a pool and we're gunna be spendin a lot of time over at his house. i've been workin out a lot and i love that i actually have time to do that! and i'm getting my license next week and my birthday is on the 20th so i'll finally be 16, i hate havin a summer birthday, except for the fact that it's in the summer. well i'm gunna go now, it's the 4th and we're havin a little neighborhood party. well everybody stay safe tonite and try not to light anyone or anything on fire, but if u do u gotta tell me the story!

Love!~sara~

mmmkk so i've had soooo much fun the past couple of weeks, bbuuuuutttt, today something really really bad happened today. my bag along with over 450$ worth of stuff was stolen today. just about cried. ok i did cry cuz that's way more than i can afford to lose. so that's pretty much the major event of the week so far. leave sum love cuz i could use it!

Later loves!~sara~

probably some of the hardest times in my life rite now, not just cause of finals either. but that's pretty overwhelming to. at least i know i have a ton of friends who always listen and support me.

Later ~~sara~~

so i've been told it's time to update. k, here we go...

there is a lot of stuff goin on right now, not all of it is bad so that's good........but for those of you that are goin through a lot as well, whatever tomarrow brings i'll be there for you with open arms. Love you guys like a fat kid loves cake!

so i was talkin with one of my friends the other day and i was tellin him about the fight i saw after school that day. that kind of opened my eyes to reality. i found i was blind to the cruelty in people and i'm now scared of it. i'm scared of reality, i'm scared of the bad things in this world, i'm scared of people and i'm scared that i might grow up to be like them. i was happier when i forgot about it all, when i was just livin like ther was no tomarrow. but since then i also realized that you can't live in fear and that we need to deal with our fears everyday. i've also decided that i'm gunna be one of some people who contributed to the good in the world. not that i havn't tried to be like that in the first place but i can make more of difference than i have been.who's with me????

while i was thinkin about all that ^ a bunch of other stuff came to mind. things like how thankful i am to live where i live. i'm not constantly surrounded or influenced by bad things or bad people. I'm so thankful for all my friends (way to many to name) and my wonderful family, they mean more to me than words can say. I'm constantly surrounded by happiness and so i give myself no excuse to ever be unhappy with all that i have been given.

even with all that said i still find myself wishing for what i used to have. since we've all been growing up so many things have been changing. i wish i was still at the age where boys had cooties and the biggest fight i ever had with a friend was to share the basketball. at that age i was totally unaware of everything that could happen to me, i never saw on the news about people getting murdered or kids getting kidnapped or wars between countries because i was to caught up in the looney toons and finishing my chores so i could go outside and play with my neighbors. things are so different now, my best friends of  9 years moved to overland park which broke the connection between all of us and some of our other neighbors. they are still my best friends but i don't get to see them as often as i want to and they are changing to. i'm changin i know it, my parents are changin, my sisters and all of my other friends. sometimes i wonder what kind of person i would be if i didn't have my family and all my close friends. since i know that i have and had an amazing childhood i don't want to know what else i could have had or what could have been worse. i'm so thankful for everything i have. THANK YOU GOD

smile like you mean it, laugh for no reason, live every moment like there's nothin better in the world than that.

*looking for love*

~sara~